Struggling

January 21, 2013 at 11:20 pm (Food, Weight) (, , , , )

This past week as been surprisingly difficult. I’ve been struggling with hunger, even a few minutes/hours after eating what should have been a filling meal, chocolate cravings, emotional roller coastering (yay for that time of the month!), weird dreams and not enough sleep. It’s been really hard to stick with the program and I’m frustrated more so because I was so hoping that I’d be able to jump on the 2013 bandwagon and ride it to the finish line without any huge bumps. Not that I ever expect an easy ride, but with all my previous experience with this kind of stuff, I was hoping for a little bit of a smoother trip. Life does have a way of playing out differently than you plan.

I guess it all kind of started with last Monday, it had snowed overnight without warning so roads had not been salted. I had not slept well, but had decided to go to Bootcamp anyway, hoping that the workout would make me feel better (cuz yeah, I’m that far gone with the exercise bug!) Well halfway down the block my car was sliding so much I freaked out, pulled over to the side of the road and walked back home. The rest of the day I spent inside, inactive, although I did refrain from overeating, yay! This event did reinforce the incredible need to replace my tires, something about hearing recommendations from others vs. actually experiencing something personally.

Tuesday and Wednesday were pretty unremarkable, although Tuesday was a bit disappointing because SIL and I again had to postpone our snowshoe date, this time indefinitely until I get new tires. Well that and I seemed to always be hungry, nothing I ate helped. Ok, and my daily weigh-in on Wednesday was my lowest yet during this round.

Thursday was crap. I was looking forward to an awesome weigh-in due to Wednesday’s weight, but it’s like my body knew Thursday was weigh-in and so I unexpectedly had a 1lb gain. Then I was forced to forgo lunch because I had to visit my in-laws before I got the chance (and anybody who has ever done Weight Watchers will tell you that they have a food cut-off time on weigh-in day, it’s tradition.) By the time I got home from my meeting I was better (yay for Fiber One Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Brownie snacks and an Awake Tea Latte from Starbucks) but not really caring about food choices. FYI, Thai food is really not a great option when you are hungry and trying to count points after the fact. Random happiness for the day was that I was chatting with a lady at WW before the meeting and she made a comment to the center coordinator (aka. my old leader) saying that I should be at the scales every week with encouragement and understanding ­čÖé And the reply was that I would be behind the counter and in front of the meetings soon enough (if, of course, I was willing.)

Friday I was all set to start a fresh week keeping within my daily points, but somehow that took a turn. Maybe it was due to all the Thai food forcing me to go up in weight again. Or maybe it was because of all the cookies I was making to share with a couple from church and the baking was getting to me (cookies don’t usually tempt me these days) or maybe the lack of sleep, who knows? I did manage to go to bootcamp AND for a walk later with my SIL, so that made the day go better.

On the weekend I was actually pretty proud of myself. I went to a wine and food tasting/pairing with some girl friends and I didn’t totally overeat/drink (helps that I was driving) and then when I got home a realised how many points I did have left I made some soup, hooray! Sadly I followed it up with some chocolate peanut butter mug cake. Those things are sneaky, so easy to make, single serve, relatively ok points-wise (5-8 depending on additions) and great to curb cravings. Apparently it just wasn’t exactly what I was craving this weekend. And then Sunday we went out for lunch/brunch with BIL and SIL at a fantastic breakfast joint that specializes in “healthy” options so side dishes most often are gorgeous displays of fruit, and not just the cheap melon/orange/random grapes fruit, I’m talking kiwi, strawberry, banana, orange, apple, melon, awesome! Afterwards, we went for another walk (they have a dog, walking is good) for more activity points! Dinner was more of the low-point soup, so that I didn’t get tempted by pub food while bowling with more lovely ladies. I tried to satiate my chocolate craving again with some hot chocolate and cookies, but unfortunately it wasn’t working either, so I finally broke down after bowling and make chocolate fudge sauce to put on some ice cream and banana (this conquers all chocolate cravings and has a banana, so it’s healthy, yes? Please?)

So overall I guess it wasn’t a horrible fail this week. I had some tough spots and I had some small victories. This week I just need a small miracle, I hit that new low last Wednesday then shot up 3.5lbs since. I’d really love it to all melt away in the next 3 days so that I can have an overall loss at WW. Historically, once I’ve reached 188 I will go up significantly the following week and take many weeks (or months) to recover. Must get to the low 180’s. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. Heck, I know I can, I know I can, I know I can!

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First Week

January 7, 2013 at 9:49 pm (Weight) (, , )

Well, first weight in of 2013 is done. Really proud of myself for getting back into the program so quickly, I was down 3.2lbs so lost everything that I gained the week of Christmas! Just another 3.7 to go to get back down to my lowest.
Since Friday I’ve had a heck of a time keeping with the program though. Friday I had a super tough workout, but more so I was feeling super lightheaded and weak and that usually leads to overeating to compensate and then eating sugar-filled foods as a pick-me-up. Saturday we were invited to a games night at my brother- and sister-in-law’s place. I knew that we’d be out late, I’d been up early and there would be bad food choices there, but somehow through the day I was also not making great choices and ended up getting there with only 5ppts left ­čśŽ I think that I will blame the fact that I was baking goodies for my church leaders in preparation for Sunday morning (I volunteered to bring snacks for all the workers that were going to be there from 7:30am!) so I a. focused more on that then making actual meals and b. had to taste one of the scones (maple-oat, 3ppts each) and muffins (blueberry, low-fat, 4ppts each.) Anyways, I started the night well stocking my plate with veggies, a delicious jalapeno greek yoghurt dip and turkey meatballs, but only managed to stay awake to the end of the night by downing copious amounts of diet soda and chowing on chocolate cookies. Not my finest hour.

Sunday was decidedly better. Up early to do final snack prep then off to set-up at church. Finished my serving there then headed to our cousin’s baptism at his home church followed by pho noodle soup for lunch. Super awesome points-wise and cleared out my sinuses nicely! Then it was mostly lazy day from there. Dinner was a bit sketchy, but I ended up with a big pile of veggies covered in turkey, some cheese and some salsa, none of which was remotely appetizing (except maybe the cheese.) And then I derailed again and made chocolate mug cakes, with PB chips for dessert. For the record, I had 10ppts left in my day, but I don’t think cake was the best use for them.

At least today I maintained the weight at my daily weigh-in and my plans for the week involve bootcamp today (DONE!), snowshoeing with my SIL tomorrow and then bootcamp again on Wednesday and Friday. I also have high hopes for setting up a food schedule so that I can pre-plan some meals and have more protein and veggies in the house ready to eat. Time will tell if I follow through on that one.

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2013 Already?

January 2, 2013 at 10:16 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , )

So I recently rediscovered this blog of mine and with it being the new year I thought I’d reintegrate myself into blogging. Also, I seem to get much better results with weight loss if I post to the blogosphere regularly (and it hits two of my New Years Resolutions; rekindle blogging romance by posting at least once a week and reach Lifetime with Weight Watchers before August 11, 2013.) To start off this year, I’ll nutshell the good and bad that has passed in the last 4 (omg, really?) years since my last post.

Sadly, I have not yet met my goal with Weight Watchers, even after putting in an amazing attempt while writing this blog. At 5lbs from the top of my healthy weight range I fell off the bandwagon, hard. Turmoil and unpredictability caused me to fly off the rails and I ended up gaining a lot of weight back. About a year after the derailment, I crawled back and fell off again not losing any significant amount of weight, but again gaining more back once I was free of tracking.

Then everything changed in August of 2011. I was recently unemployed (again) and I decided that with all my spare time, I was going to get healthy. I told myself that this time was it, I’d been doing a bootcamp-esque class 3 times a week and I was keeping it up even better now that I was able to go to morning classes (really, so nice to work out at 9:30am not try to squeeze in an hour after work when I had three other evening commitments or have to miss classes because I was going away for the weekend) so I knew I could keep up the exercise portion. Tracking was thing that I knew killed my drive. It was all those times were I would feel totally deprived and start binging on non-healthy foods and then feeling horrible and not tracking which would lead to not caring anymore. So I devised a plan, for every month that I tracked everything, I would reward myself with something; new earrings, new shoes, etc. Arguably not the best option while unemployed, but it was a start. I also told my boyfriend that I wanted him to help me by just reminding me to track, not asking me what the points were or trying to only suggest things that would be healthier (things which in the past made me want to rebel and therefore choose the worst option, just out of random spite.) And with that, on August 11, 2011, I walked into Weight Watchers and signed up for what I am hoping will be my last time. To make things even more┬áserendipitous, the leader for my meeting of choice was the same leader as I’d started my first Weight Watcher journey with four years previously and at a different location!

That day I weighed in at a whopping 240.9! I hadn’t weighed that much since early 2007, but it was a place to start and I used it as motivation. In my first week I lost 6.7 lbs (I’m pretty sure I lost a daily point as well, which made me happy) and I created the most awesomest spreadsheet to track my progress. Not only does it show me my weight with WW in table and graph form, each week it takes my weight and calculates my BMI (that’s colour-coded to show obese/overweight/healthy), my weight loss for the week, my average weight loss over all weeks AND based on that average an estimate on when I’ll reach goal! I also made up a similar sheet that shows me weight, loss, average loss and BMI for my daily weigh-in (another key to my weight loss journey successes, daily scale time before breakfast.)┬áIt is my favouritest weight spreadsheet ever, and I still use it daily!

December of 2011, my life changed again. On our anniverary, my boyfriend proposed. So very cute, he was so nervous about it. The whole week leading up to the evening he kept talking about changing our relationship (enough that I eventually asked him if he wanted to break up with me, just to get him to realise that he wasn’t doing a great job of keeping it secret.) Then all through dinner he kept grabbing and playing with my hands, not wanting to do it during dinner because he knows I don’t like a whole lot of attention. Finally after dinner, just as we were about to head back down to our car, he brought out the ring and asked. Now I had even more motivation to lose weight and get healthy!

In January, I found out that the bootcamp I was going to cancelled the 9:30 class. Arguably there were three regulars in that class, so it didn’t make a whole lot of sense to keep up. But that meant I was on the hunt for a new 9:30 am class to keep up my routine. After trying a few local gyms and having a few weeks of doing nothing, I stumbled upon a Groupon for a bootcamp that looked fabulous and was offering a deal on a month trial. Not only did they have a dedicated gym for the sole purpose of offering bootcamp style classes, they offered SEVEN class times every weekday and a Saturday class as well. The only “catch” was that for the Groupon deal you had to join the 8:30 class, something which didn’t bug me too much because it just gave me an extra hour in my day (I’d never do anything before bootcamp other than FB and breakfast, too much effort.) At the very end of January I started my month with The Bootcamp Effect and I was hooked after the first class. Exercise routine down!

The rest of 2012 was pretty much devoted to wedding planning although a few notable points must be shared. After 5 years of living in Metro Vancouver, my fianc├ę and I hiked the Grouse Grind, something I’d been wanting to do every summer since moving here. He has a birth “defect” which causes him to go slow with many breaks (which near killed me in the beginning when I had drive to keep going) but we made it too the top (I was really glad for those breaks in the upper half when I got super dizzy/nauseous and could only focus on what was right in front of me.) Once I felt human again, we celebrated by having pizza at the top, which I tracked of course, and I felt an amazing sense of accomplishment.

My other awesome accomplishment came from my wedding dress. My mom and I purchased it at a Boxing Week Sale, it was the first dress I tried on with my mom and Maid of Honour, it was on the clearance rack, but every other dress that day was compared to it. It was sold as is, obviously, and was slightly small, but the corset back offered a lot of freedom and the sales lady told us we could fix that by using a larger modesty panel at the back. We didn’t even have a wedding date yet and the dress was ours! After a few months we had the first fitting with the seamstress. I put on the dress and the seamstress asked us what she was supposed to be doing, the dress fit PERFECTLY! Of course it helps that I’m tall and the dress didn’t need any hemming, but the corset back did up perfectly and it looked amazing. I was so proud that I’d kept up with my food and exercise that I’d been able to lose so much. There were a few small broken elements that needed fixing, so we booked a second appointment with the seamstress to check the dress once they were done. Another few months and we were back, I tried on the dress and … it was TOO BIG! Again, the corset back gives a lot of freedom, but the sales lady was concerned because the lacing was done up so tight it didn’t give the preferred “V” anymore. This gave me even more happiness because those months I had seen less movement on the scale, so bootcamp was applauded for getting me so toned! We ended up having to take in the dress by almost 3 inches! I’m still so proud of myself for buying a dress a tad too small and having to take it in so much. And I looked amazing on the big day.

September was wedding month. We didn’t really want a long engagement, and the world was supposed to end in December (actually, on what would have been our 5th anniversary) and I didn’t want to die unmarried! (More-so┬á12 is my favourite number and I was┬ádetermined not to have a 13 in a significant date.) I kept up my weight loss and reached 50 pounds lost right before the wedding. I even made it a point of going to my meeting 2 days before my wedding and again the following week before we left for our honeymoon. The honeymoon has been my biggest set back since this journey began. We were taking a 12 day cruise to Hawaii and I decided that I wanted to enjoy the cruise, the place and my brand new HUSBAND, so I was going to take a break from tracking and apparently reason. First meeting back (four days after arriving home), I was up 14.6lbs!┬á┬áNot totally discouraged, I got right back on track and then just before Christmas arrived back at my pre-wedding weight (spot on it actually.)

Now it’s 2013, I’m a new wife, still going to bootcamp 3 times a week (at least), tracking everything (even with my 7lb hiccup over the 2 weeks of pre-Christmas and Christmas and then New Years Eve where I tracked but didn’t count points), and aiming to add more awesomeness (like more snowshoeing and more Grouse Grind hikes!) My biggest goal for 2013, weight-wise, is to reach my Lifetime so that I can start working for Weight Watchers and helping others reach their weight goals (I’ve already been sudo-recruited by my leader and store coordinator as well as one of our receptionists and even the regional director!)

So we’re all up to date, watch out for more posts and updates to the loss page!

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2009 is here!

January 3, 2009 at 4:52 am (Plans, Weight) (, , , )

Welcome to 2009. I’m ready to get back on track after the Christmas season. I had a really hard time sticking with the program, for some reason eating healthy just wasn’t on my agenda. Running however was a big priority and often made me later for other planned activities.

This year is all about endings and challenges. For the first 4 months I’m moving back home with my parents to finish my engineering degree. This is going to be a big, huge challenge. First off, I’ve been out of school for 16 months, I’m not going to know most of the people there. Second, I’m working part-time still at my current job, holding a job and going to school have never really worked out for me but I’m hoping the reduced course load and the flexibility of the job will work out. Last and most challenging for me is living at home with my parents.

I’ve been living on my own or with others for almost 4 years now. I’ve gotten into my routines and way of doing things that works awesomely for me. I know how to shop and make yummy WW friendly foods. I take care of myself and do exercise. I’ve got a good groove going. When I’m at home that all goes in the gutter. Mom loves to make meals and goes WAY overboard with portion sizes and doesn’t like to use reduced fat foods (but loves to not use oil to stir fry and pan fried meats that benefit from healthy fats). She is constantly making food and then telling me what she put in it AFTER she’s overfilled my plate. I’m going to have to start making food more often, but there is no way that I can make food every night and my mother and sister are very attached to the current food situation (my dad however LOVES to try new foods and has told me he’s going to start eating healthier with me). I’m very worried about this but have got to find the strength to persevere and forge my own way. This is also something I’m going to work on in 2009: making me think I’m important and not caring what other people might think of me for acting that way.

2009 will also be the end of my weight issues. Come hell or high water, by Dec 31, 2009 I WILL WEIGHT 165 LBS OR LESS! I’m hoping that it can be done in 4 months or less but weight loss is a journey and it has ups and downs and plateaus that are all part of the process.

Ongoing good things that I’m looking forward to in 2009 include:

– Fully running the TC 10k in April,

– Making friends with all the new babies arriving this year,

– Spending more time with my fantastic, loving boyfriend, and

– Enjoying life and food to the fullest!

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One week down!

November 20, 2008 at 12:23 am (Weight) (, )

So it’s been a week and I’ve managed to stay pretty well on target! I even when to the island for the day on Saturday, but managed to keep my food in check!

I’ve got to say that I’m really excited about running, it’s been a great sweaty adventure, but it wasn’t nearly as hard as I imagined getting back into the swing of it. I also went on the WiiFit for a while yesterday and did some new exercises and yoga poses. I held the dancer’s pose for the full time without falling!!

I know that it’s only one week, but for now I think: if I can do one week, the rest should be too hard, right?

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